I have been fortunate enough to never have experienced any type of depression (that I know of) and certainly not PPD. I really haven't even known anyone who has had it either.

So what are some signs of PPD? Can you get it 3 months PP?

I only ask because I have not been myself lately. I don't want to do anything. I want to cry, but even that takes some energy. I want to take a relaxing bath, but that means I have to get up. And if you have been reading my Blog, most of it is depressing things. That is not me. I always try to find the good in things. Something positive in all the bad. I am still doing that for everyone else, but not for myself. DH came home today and all I did was complain. He asked if anything positive happened and I said No. But that is not true.

I just don't know what is going on. I don't like it. Last night before we went to bed, even my DH said he is ready to have the old me back. It was more in regards to my physical health right now, but I wonder if he meant more.

Or maybe I am just in a bad funk with everything going on. Maybe I just need a break. I have not been without a child by my side since Keira was born and I was in labor. That's at least three months of no breaks. Add in there DH traveling and half of that time it has been me by myself with them.

How do I get a break? How do I make DH see I need a break? A real break. Not just an hour while he takes the girls to dinner. But a real break. Maybe some pampering. Something. I need to do something soon or I am going to break. I already went too far today. What's next?